August

Nearly two months since I last posted. Much of that time I have spent with him, and I am feeling secure in our relationship. It feels like we really do belong together, there is a meshing that is ongoing and feels right. So where does the poly fit, given that I am monogamous? I am still not exactly comfortable with it, but I am more accepting of it. I don't like that he is with her, I don't like being away from him, but I am ok. I am living, breathing, functioning, and I will be with him again soon. And my life, I keep reminding myself, is more than my love relationship. I have other things to do, a job to go to, family and friends to attend to. Those things can feed me too.

I believe that our relationship is strong partly because we don't live in each other's pockets, that there are periods of separation, that we don't take each other's presence for granted. The fact that he is poly precludes the humdrum, daily routine aspect of a committed love relationship, and maybe it is time I appreciate that and even welcome it.